Sunday, December 26, 2010


This Christmas was good. Special, in fact. I don't know what made it more special than other years, or if it just gets more special the older I get. This year, unlike last year, we had everyone there. It was fantastic.

This was my first year out on my own so starting a new tradition for myself was interesting. I made sure to keep my heritage in mind and made sure St. Nick came for my roommates earlier this month. In return, KayCee made sure Santa returned and I got to experience having a stocking for the first time in my life! We just did friend presents this year and nothing more or less but that was fun. I tried making it a point to wait until at least Christmas Eve to open presents (which I did just fine...) but some couldn't wait and opened theirs days ago.

Since Christmas Eve fell on a Friday this year, the Credit Union closed for the weekend, which was a nice change! I enjoyed my Christmas Eve morning by sleeping in and lounging the day away. Then it was time to meet up with my family for our traditional Christmas dinner at the Sizzler. We've been going there for as long as I can remember, and I think I love it more and more each year! It was great having Doug and Casey back this year along with my other siblings and the kiddos. After our delicious dinner, we headed back up to my parents' house for a traditional sing-a-long/story of the birth of Christ - complete with stick puppets for the grandkids. It's so great to have such a wide range of people participate and sing and the true meaning of Christmas was really there.

Time for gifts. Each year we, as siblings, draw names for Secret Santa. This year I got the Burkhards (my sister and her family). We had a $25 limit to spend. I decided to get them a "Family Night" gift complete with a movie, game, and treats. They seemed to like it! Casey, my cute returned-missionary brother drew my name this year. The kid has always been able to make me laugh and he didn't cease this year with my gift. I immediately knew it was going to be good when I saw my family whip out cameras for my reaction. I open my gift and there is a plush, leopard-pring Snuggie. But...nestled inside the Snuggie was a gift certificate. I turn it around and it says, "Gift Certificate for a Date with {guys name}, Love your Baby Brother." I about died. I was laughing uncontrollably and completely embarrassed. I joke to friends daily that "I need a man" and Casey delivered this year. Casey has a good friend a year older than me or so that he is having take me out - the guy even signed it (I'll post a picture a little later..maybe..).

After the sibling gifts, my parents gave theirs to us. This year they each gave us a TomTom GPS along with tickets to see Jeff Foxworthy, Bill Engval, and Larry the Cable Guy this March. I was so excited I had goosebumps. I grew up listening to Jeff Foxworthy with my dad like they were nursery rhymes. I'm a big fan of the Blue Collar Comedy group. The grandkids got little kids' laptops and dolls/trucks from their Nana and Papa and we as kids gave my parents an overnight stay at some fancy place. It was great!

Because my sister and her family have moved to St. George earlier this year, they were able to spend the night at my parents' house as well. Santa caught on that they were up north this year and delivered to the kids and Doug's son, McKay (who also spent the night). Bright and early the whole family was up watching the kids in excitement over their new gifts from Santa. Kids sure make Christmas special. It was so much fun to see how elated they all were all morning. After presents, my sister, my mom, and I made breakfast and we relaxed, played games, dosed, and laughed the early morning away. The Burkhards had to leave around noon to go to Dan's family's house and Chad and Kendra were at the McAlister's that day. My parents, Doug, Casey and I lounged a while longer, watched Jurassic Park, then finally got ready. We headed down to the Gateway and saw "Unstoppable." Definitely a good movie!! By that point, we were all partied out and called it a night. I headed home to enjoy the rest of the evening in peace and quiet (lots of kids = lots and lots and lots of noise!).

I hope your Christmases were just as merry as mine! Here's to the new year coming and goals on improving!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

2nd Annual Thankfuls - detailed (and long!)

I know I'm a few days late on this, but better late than never. I've thought a lot this month about what I'm especially grateful for and even thought about doing a "blessing a day" type of post daily, but let's face it...I'm a horrible blogger. So without futher ado...

*My mother. I can't even begin to explain how much I love her and appreciate her. Since I've moved out, I have grown to love her more than I ever thought possible. It's true that distance makes the heart grow fonder. I miss her daily. I've thought a lot about my life and specifically the struggles I had as a child with fears, depression, etc. I wasn't an easy child, but she was always there. The nights she slept in my bed, or in my parents' bed. The times she'd hold me during my worst times (she still does!). She never once made me feel less than her number one priority. I don't know how she did it. As I got older, she became more than my mom. She became my best friend and the funniest person I've ever known. No one can make me laugh harder than she does. We laugh all the time. We couldn't sit together at church without giggling uncontrollably. She knows me inside and out. I don't get it, but she can 'sense' what is going on without me telling her. Strange, but true. I could go on and on, but it would never fully express my gratitude for her. I thank my Heavenly Father and lucky stars for her specifically.

*My dad. I could have put them together and say I'm grateful for my parents as a whole, and while I am, it doesn't do them justice individually. My dad is my numero uno. Always has. I have been a daddy's girl my whole life. He is my biggest fan. He always seems impressed with me and my life regarless of how I feel about my own self and accomplishments. He worries about me, he cheers for me, and he supports me in all of my decisions. He treats my mom like a queen and my sister and me like princesses. He is my brothers' favorite guy and it's a no wonder. He is a special, special man and I'm just as thankful for him as I am my mom.

*My siblings. I am SO grateful for each of my siblings invididually. I have such a good relationship with each of them, and their spouses. I'm SO grateful for the gospel and adoption for allowing my sister and brother to be part of our family forever. I can't imagine how I'd be without them. And over the last year, events have brought us closer together. I'm grateful we love each other and spend time together. Movies, midnight 7-11 runs, lunch dates, etc. They're terrific. I am so grateful for the kids they have. I think I may love them more than my own siblings! :) Emily, Rachel, Nick, McKay, Eva, Kara, Adam, and the sweet baby we miss and baby to come.

*My job. I've said it before and I'll say it again, but I'm so lucky to work where I do. The values the company stands for and for the people I've worked with and work with today. Right now, in this period of my life, I couldn't ask for a better team than my branch. We are a branch of girls, but we all get along great, we laugh hard and work hard. Each one have been an inspiration to me and help me see the better in myself and encourage me to be better. I'm fortunate that management appreciates me. I try to work hard and earn trust and responsibility. I'm glad for an opportunity to get to know and help at another branch for a bit.

*My roommies. KayCee and Lidia. These two ladies have become more than best friends, they've become sisters. I couldn't have asked for better roommates and we have had a lot of fun. We love and respect each other and we all get along extremely well. I owe them a lot for things they've done for me.

*The gospel. Now that I'm out on my own, I've had to be better at getting myself to church and put myself out there in a *gulp* singles ward. Man, that's hard. I'm glad I'm in the ward I'm in. It's been a lot of fun and the bishopric is terrific. There are two people there who have been the sole reason I have stayed in the ward slowly getting to know people. Dana and Duane. Apart from the going to church aspect, the gospel in itself is the biggest blessing. This year has posed some hard times towards the Church and our leaders. I'm grateful and honored to say that I support them 100%. I have felt of the gospels truths and I'm a better person for it. I need to be better with all activities, but I know the Church is true.

*The opportunity to provide for myself. All things. I'm grateful for the means to pay my bills - and on time - each month. For the ability to buy my own groceries, gas, utilities, car, rent, etc. Especially in this economy, I'm so grateful.

*My experiences. I've experienced quite a bit the last few years that have dramatically changed me. I am such a different person now than I was 5 years ago. Obviously there's a lot I want to do and fix, but ultimately, I'm happy for the places I've been, the adventures I've had and the wicked trials I've conquered.

*Music. I can't live without it. It's the best way for me to feel and express emotions, my life's events, and there's just something about karaoke-ing in the car on a nice commute/drive!

*Technology - specifically my phone and laptop. I am always a second away from chatting with my family whenever I want/need and keeping up on the lives of my friends. Facebook and blogs have been a lot of fun to stay connected to people I haven't seen in years but I still know them daily.

*My car. Ah, it's a wonderful car. I got a new(er) car earlier this year and it has been such a champ.

*Prayer. I need to be better about this, but I love knowing help is just a prayer away.

*My calling. Quite a difference from my last few callings, but I love the opportunity to help and serve regardless of the "magnitude."

*Laughter. I laugh a lot. I live to laugh. I feel it's the way I survive. I laugh at the stupid things I do (I'm so awkward sometimes) and life is always funny.

I could sit all night and list every thing I can think of that I'm grateful for, but I had to express my greatest blessings. I can't go without saying it. I am such a lucky person and I don't realize it enough and I more often than not take it for granted. What a wonderful year it's been and hopes to creating more blessings in the year to come!

Monday, November 1, 2010

So, how've you been?

It's been too long. I've thought about blogging for over a month now but the longer I put it off, the more things I need to blog about and the more I don't want to spend time blogging. Vicious cycle.

I turned 24 last week.

I am ancient. At least that's how I feel. It is so crazy to think how fast time flies and how much and how little things have changed and gone on in my life. This time last year everything was changing and happening and I could barely keep up. This year has been low-key. With that being said..I have decided to change that in my 24th (technically 25th) year of life. It's more like my New Year's Resolution, I guess. I promise my 24th will be awesome. I don't know how yet, but I've got some ideas and hopes brewing upstairs. We'll see..

As for life otherwise, I'm still figuring out where my feet belong on earth. I've gotten past the frustration part to now where it's funny. I am so not who I thought I was or who I was going to be at my age and I'm good with it. I laugh often. I play often. I think that's pretty good. It makes it easier to decide what fun thing is next.

I have a good job and work with some of the greatest people. I'm extremely grateful I'm where I am. I didn't know why it felt right to transfer when I did, but I now know. I'm impressed I've been able to make it on my own so far. I'm sure my parents didn't think I'd last :) but I have. It's been hard to give up traveling on a whim and shopping, but it's been so much fun living with my roommates. They are my best friends. My sisters. I have a place of my own and I love it. I'm happy. I choose to be happy.

Not much of an update, but I hope to be a bit more proactive and keep things updated more often.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Meet Rob Schneider. Check.

This past Friday, the opportunity came and with some coaxing and bribing to KayCee to come with me, I crossed this off of my bucket list! I was beyond ecstatic and giddy. I absolutely love this guy. I love his movies and his stupid humor and when I found out he was coming to Utah, I jumped on the chance! I have wanted to meet him since I saw him on "Hot Chick." He is so friendly and as funny in person as he is on the big screen.

Yeah it's pretty much my new favorite shirt.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Time of my life

The phrase has been on my mind so much lately. It's like it's become my motto. My creed. For the good and the bad. I've pondered what this could mean in all sorts of aspects of my life and I've discovered it means all that it entails.

My young adult life has been the time of my life. This is the time where I can be whoever I want to be. Make my life exactly what I want. I don't know what I want...Last night, I prayed until I fell asleep. Granted, it wasn't while kneeling, but as I lay curled up warm in my bed, I poured out my heart and feelings. I have never felt more open and honest to anyone than I did at that moment with my Heavenly Father. It felt so good. I'm not meaning this post to take a Spiritual turn by all means, but it put me in a reflective, mellow mood today. I prayed for help on where I want my life to be. I thanked Him for the millions of blessings I've been given, but knowingly take advantage of, unfortunately. I've experienced numourous things I never thought would ever happen, overcame trials that seemed impossible, and I've done things I never thought I would, and it has been awesome. The time of my life. But, I feel empty inside. I am not completing something and I cannot figure out what it is. I have gone through every possible option in my mind to fill that void and I can't tell what it is. Will it be filled when I'm married and start a family? Is it just some depression I'm feeling? Is it because I've been complacent for so long? Or am I honestly going through a "quarter-life crisis?"

I need China. Or a China-like experience. I was able to clear my head and figure out what I wanted in life and I felt rejuvenated. I have forgotten what it was I wanted to do. Or I did it and it's time for a new phase and step in my life. I can't keep running away though. I have to be able to figure out how to work things out as an adult!

No worries, I'm not posting this as a Debbie Downer, but more to "think outloud." Believe me, I am making some adjustments in my life right now that I can already tell are significantly helping, but I'm still missin' something. Any of my other young adult (single and not single) friends feeling this way?

Sunday, June 27, 2010


My grandma Roma is up in heaven laughing at me. I can feel it. She was once a shoe collector herself and warned me in her dying days that "your feet'll turn out like mine and fall off." She adored heels. I adore heels. But this weekend, I wanted to take my PRECIOUS, new, flirty heels and hit me in the head with them. Hard.

I was beyond stupid this weekend.

You would think I would have learned my lesson already from this experience last year.

No, no. No.

Friday night Lidia and I headed out to Target to do some shopping and browsing. I found a few cute shirts, and left happy. We then hit Ross. Love that store. And I found a darling pair of heels. I just couldn't leave the store without them!

Saturday rolls around and I decide to wear my new shoes and new shirt to an activity Lidia and I had signed up for a couple weeks ago {we tried getting KayCee to go, but she's been sick this weekend}. Our ward was heading to the Manti Miracle Pageant. I hadn't been since I was really young and Lidia hadn't experienced it yet. I didn't think it'd be a big deal to wear heels to the day activity since we'd be sitting to watch the program. I was a bit embarrassed to see I was the only one wearing heels though..

We left around 3 on our buses and headed down south for the long drive. When we finally approached Manti, our buses turned and parked a good block or two away from the area. No biggie, we'd walk. We get off the bus and start walking, but since they were new heels I didn't wanna fall behind and walk slow, so I slipped off my heels. I grew up going barefoot. I prefer it. Asphalt, dirt, grass...doesn't bother me. So I walked on the streets with my group for a minute before realizing the asphalt must've been 410 degrees {afterall, the temp outside was close to 100}. I kept walking. I got to a crosswalk and couldn't handle the burning and smell of burning flesh anymore and finally put my heels back on. I took two steps and could feel my skin sliding against the heel. I knew then, at 5 pm, that my night was shot. We spent a good hour on the grass waiting in line for good seats and I stood barefoot in every ounce of shade I could find to relieve the stinging burn. I dreaded walking across the street let alone anywhere else. Against my avail, we were to have dinner at the Manti Tabernacle. Five blocks away. Lidia and I didn't have lunch so we were starving by then. I knew we'd have to walk, so I begged her to use her iPhone and order pizza. I'd leave a generous tip. Somehow, I agreed to go with her to the dinner {afterall, I didn't want to ruin this experience for her because of my lack o'knowledge}. It hurt worse to have the heels on my feet than to walk barefoot, so I limped and waddled the entire city of Manti barefoot yesterday. Again, on the hot ground. I was shaking and sweating so bad by the time we had reached the tabernacle. Lidia was so kind to let me borrow her shoes for the last block or so while she went barefoot and burned her foot, too. I told her I felt blood might be getting in her shoe and that was the last second I had them on my feet.

Anyways, I, by some miracle, made it back to the temple grounds alive {with the help of some new friends willing to give piggy backs for 4 steps before we fell over laughing hysterically} and had a lot of fun with new friends, dares {I had to pour a whole pouch of blue Fun Dip in my mouth all at once - and inevitably spent the night with a blue/green face}, laughter, and the wonderful Pageant. The highlight was finally talking to and meeting my ward crush for the first time. He is SO cute, but SO out of my league. A girl can day dream though, right? The pageant ended sometime after 11 and we didn't make it back to Sandy until close to 2 a.m. By then my feet had hardened, blistered and road burned so much I walked on the sides of my feet into the house.

Oh, and happier updates/notes: I DID buy a pair of flats that same night too, ironically. And I feel some changes in the air coming soon!


Sunday, June 20, 2010

Until I Blog an Update...

I just thought I'd share this darling picture of my sweet niece.

The girl loves food. Licked her plate clean.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

I've been shocked

I'm embarrassed to admit this, but what the heck. A couple weeks ago, I borrowed the Book of Mormon Reader from a fellow co-worker. It's basically a picture book that explains the Book of Mormon in layman's terms. I desperately needed it. I have never completed the Book of Mormon. I've tried, and I've failed. I just don't understand what happens after Nephi. I thoroughly enjoyed the book and finished it in two sittings. One thing that caught my attention was how much the Lord told the people to repent. I mean, I've always known that I suppose, but I was surprised! I often found myself wondering while I read, "What are they doing? What sin can they not stop committing? I mean, it's like 200 B.C., they don't have pornography, they don't have as many idols, they have rocks and sand and forests...hmmm.."

Well, this weekend I've figured it out.

This past week I got rid of my Satanic car (beside the point...and a whole different blog post) and before I left the dealership I cleaned out my car. I found my most recent journal in the trunk. I was ecstatic. I have been wondering where it has been and I was sad because it had some final memories of my high school days and my days in China. I read it yesterday morning...

Man, I was an angry teenager.

I was floored. I was so angry with God. For reasons I will not post-they are useless now. I never knew how angry I was, and I don't think I knew back then either. The saddest part is I think I've still been holding a grudge against Him. And I. Am. Ashamed. I'm embarrassed, I'm hurt, and I feel so low. I keep thinking of that story of the man close to drowning in the ocean and he has total "faith" that the Lord will save him. Well, a large piece of rift-wood floats by and he doesn't climb aboard it thinking, "The Lord will save me." A boat comes by and the passengers throw out a life saver and he declines saying, "No, no, the Lord will rescue me." Then later a helicopter comes and rolls out a ladder and still the man declines, "No No! The Lord will rescue me!" The guy drowns. This guy was waiting for the Lord to come down and physically lift him out of the ocean, yet He gave the man three options to save his life, despite his ignorance.

It occured to me tonight as I was getting ready for bed that this is what the Lord begs the Nephites and Lamanites to repent for. Doubt of the His blessings and Plan for us. I grew up knowing some stories of the Book of Mormon, particulary the story of Laman and Lemuel and how doubtful they always were. And I kept thinking, "How many times does God have to let them know He is real and his entire Plan? And they still doubt?! Angels appeared, prophetic moments from their own father and brother, and even a physical shock!"

Enter Sammi. I've always had a testimony of my Heavenly Father. I have had some very private moments where I know He is there. Moments only my parents really know about. To the point where they could ask me why I doubt? I've been angry and doubting His plan for me, because it's not going according to MY plan. I had this idea of what my life would be like and it would all be handed to me on a silver platter. Yet the Lord has thrown me life supports to keep me on my way to learn and grow even if I'm not doing it myself. I've been just as ignorant as that man. I guess I've continually thought that if He wanted me to go somewhere, He'd make it happen. I just didn't realize that He would, but I get to decide what to do with my life in the meantime.

Knowing this now, I have so many ideas of what I want to do and who I want to become. I feel like a burden has been lifted and I'm so emotional and humbled. I don't know exactly what I'll do, or where I will go, but I KNOW the Lord will guide me if I finally accept His kind of help. I know I will be happy again. Happier than I've been in years. I can now see the light as to how to become the woman in my patriarchal blessing. The woman the Lord wants me to become.

I love the Lord.

I love His Son.

I love the Gospel.

I love me.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

A bit of Mail this weekend

Dear Daughter,

I remember well the day you left my side, wandered through the veil and ventured forth to fulfill your earthly mission. I had a tear in my eye as I clothed your spirit in a cloak of love and sent you off to school. Be assured that my thoughts are with you now, as always.

I love you with all of my heart. I know your life, the good, the bad, your grief, your disappointments, your unrewarded efforts, your frustrations. But always remember--all that I have is yours if you will only come home again.

Daughter, realize that in you I have placed a bit of heaven. No one was exempt. I love all of my children. You have some blessed gifts, some talent, some little part of me in you. Search for it, develop it, use it, and most importantly, share it with others. If you really love me, then help others find themselves and lead them to me. Show your love by serving others.

Repent of your failings and humble yourself. Make yourself ever teachable and continually strive to improve. I gave you weaknesses to help you be humble. Dont condemn me for that. I did it because I love you. Be full of hope. Don't let discouragement engulf you. I'll come if you need me.

Daughter, cease your idle contentions. Be a peacemaker, for it breaks my heart to see so many of my children fighting. If they could only see what I have hoped, planned and desired for them. My heart breaks as I watch them. But you, faithful daughter, are my hope. It is through you that my work must proceed. You haven't much time and there is so much work to be done. I beg you to get started. Accomplish the mission I gave to you before you left me. I'll help you. I'll never be too busy or too far away to come to you. I'm nearer to you always than you might suspect. I have so much I would like to tell you, but I can't here.

Come to me often in prayer. I love to talk to you, my beloved daughter. Be diligent in my work and my kingdom shall be yours. I'd love to take you in my arms, but I too, must wait patiently: that time will come. Till then I leave you my peace, my blessing, my love, and never forget I am nearby whenever you need me.

I love you and miss you so very much and, oh, how I am looking forward to your return to me.

All my love,

Your Heavenly Father

Monday, April 12, 2010

Musings of this week

~ Got my wisdom teeth out.
~ Kinda liked-no loved, actually-being completely sedated. Trippy feeling!
~ Flirted with the chaplain of St Mark's hospital. My mom says I'm friendlier "under the influence"
~ Panicked thinking the oxygen I wore was my dead grandmother's..
~ I learned that wisdom teeth swelling isn't so much swelling as two big, hard lumps on your jawline
~ Advil was my best friend and constant companion this week
~ Sushi tastes MUCH better deep fried. *try the Mexican Crunch, SO good*
~ Squid sushi on the other hand, will never be good.
~ Misery loves company. Heartbreaks bring back tender emotions
~ Milkshakes can cure a teeny-tiny bit of heartache!
~ So do long drives around the valley singing along with Cyndi Lauper
~ $2 won free from Karl Malone Toyota bought the most delicious Diet Coke
~ They've made some pretty good movies lately
~ I love Duff on Ace of Cakes. Don't ask why... And Uncle Jesse...
~ Never trust a tie around dress on a windy day. It's a good thing I wore underwear!
~ Been thinking a lot about the past, present, and future.
~ Challenged to be accepted to school by my boss. This month.

Well, that sums of the week in a simple blog post. Happy April Showers.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Love it

A friend shared this with me last week sometime and I laughed. So. Hard. I absolutely love Asians. Always have. And the fact that I love nail salons is even better. And I love that this lady hit it dead on. Hope nobody is offended.


Sunday, March 21, 2010

Good weekend!

This weekend was a weekend that finally felt like a good, deserved weekend! Saturday was filled with a lot of fun. I slept in a bit, cleaned my place and got ready for the day. KayCee decidedit was a day for Nielsen's so we headed up to Bountiful. We went seperate since she was bringing her sister and brother and law, and I wanted to visit with my family. We enjoyed a good hour of delicious custard and french fries and good conversation.

Seeing my parents was probably the highlight of the weekend. It was really good to see them and laugh and catch up. My mom is doing awesome in her business endeavors and took me to see her new office space! I'm really excited for her to launch her dream and see how it goes! We then went to see my brother and sister in law and my adorable nieces. They both had just gotten over terrible ear infections, but were so fun to play with and visit. I've said it once, but there is something about those girlies that just makes me so happy. I got my Eva dose!

I headed back down to Sandy to change clothes, then KayCee and I headed downtown to meet some friends for the Jazz game. The game was an instant win, so we spent most of our time laughing, joking and eating half-way frozen churros.

After the game the gang headed to Shelley's for some good ole Rock Band! We had about four more friends join that night and we had a room full of tear-forming and gut-wrenching laughing.

Today was church. We made it through sacrament meeting, but KayCee wasn't feeling well (and she was my ride), so we headed back home for rest. We spent the rest of the afternoon lounging and napping.

All in all, I feel pretty rejuvenated for the next week! (And only like, two more weeks til Lidia moves in!)

Monday, March 15, 2010

I have a problem..

Everytime I get into a rut, I plan a "what's next" step in my life. You know, your whole life you await those big monumental moments and checkpoints and then look forward to the next phase of life. Turning 12 to finally leave Primary and become a Young Woman. Turning 16 to date and drive. Turning 18 to rebel and graduate. Then the guaranteed checkpoints stop. What next? Life throws curve balls where you can choose your checkpoints. College. Missions. Marriage. Well, what happens if you don't have any of those for some reason or another? So, I picked another one. A right step. I moved out. Well, checkpoint accomplished. Now what?

I told KayCee my dilema today and she simply stated, "Um Sam. Enjoy it." It dawned on me then that I've never actually enjoyed my phase of life, but I worry about achieving the next. When that has happened in the past, and I can't get to my next phase soon enough, I create my own. Flee the country on some wild adventure. Pick up extreme sports to get that adrenaline rushing.

Last night I found myself seriously researching skydiving.

Don't get me wrong, skydiving is a sport I most definitely want to try. And to be honest, I more than likely will in the near future. But why can't I find college to be a "heart-pumping" phase, too? Why am I looking to postpone it (even if I've been unaware of this!)? I crave a college education! But I'm lacking the motivation to finally get started. Once I get pumped, I realize it'll take me three years to get a degree and I'm depressed. Do I really want to be working on my degree still at 26? Yes!

Somebody help me get my tush in gear! And remind me to enjoy my phase of life I'm in. Until then, I'm mentally preparing myself for a 12,500 ft. freefall going 120 mph!

PS Pictures of the place are coming soon, I promise!

Friday, February 26, 2010

I'll Miss..

Tonight I'm packing. Well, sorta. Attempting would be the better word. But I can't help but keep thinking I will really only have a few more nights in my home. I can't believe I'm actually moving out. It's all surreal. When I moved to China for a semester, it didn't really affect me much since I knew I'd be coming back when I was done there. Now that this is more permanent, it's hard to express the feeling. I realize I'm a late bloomer for leaving home and that kids these days do it at 18 for college. But living at home has given me a relationship with my parents and siblings that many may not have. I went through those especially hard times figuring out myself with my parents and brothers and sister(s) by my side rather than solely relying on roommates.

I'll miss my parents. I can't even explain how much I will miss the friendship and the support I have from them. I will miss having them have my back 24/7. I'll miss laughing with them late at night or Sunday afternoons. I'll miss my mom's cooking. My dad's popcorn. I'll miss my mom's alzheimer moments in Church. I'll miss talking to her everyday and her hugs. I'll miss my late night runs with my dad. I'll miss them whipping me into gear to be a better person. I have truly been blessed with the most amazing people as parents. I love them more than anyone could understand and because of them, I have a testimony of eternal families.

I'll miss living so close to Eva and Kara. I'll miss coming home from work when Nana and Papa are babysitting and I hear a little voice scream, "Ah Sammi!" I'll miss their tight squeezes when I need them and the kisses on the cheek. I'll miss the easy opportunity to hang out with Chad and Kendra when we want to see a movie or chill at home.

I'll miss my sweet McKay. A few unfortunate circumstances led me to have the most fortunate opportunity to have that little boy in my life daily where he became closer to us than "nephew." I'll miss him wanting me to cuddle him before I tucked him in. I'll miss him eating with us and laughing. I'll miss watching him study a word search and tell me, "Three F's!" or hearing him learn with the educational cartoons, "B-B-B-Boy." I'll miss Mandy. I'll miss Doug.

I'll miss the "me-time" I get daily with the long commute. Believe it or not, I'll miss the construction! I'll miss not watching it change daily. I'll miss Bountiful and the fond memories I have there. I'll miss Nielsen's not being so close! I'll miss my home ward almost as much as I'll miss my parents!

I look forward to growing and becoming more independent. I look forward to finally learning how to cook other than soup and macaroni and cheese. I look forward to a quick commute! I look forward to "my own place" and having great friends there. I look forward to a new ward and new friends. I look forward to Sandy and making fabulous memories there!

There. I feel better. Now to packing........

Friday, February 19, 2010

I wanna grow old with you

I love this movie and I stumbled upon it this weekend. Someday I hope the man of my dreams will think this is fitting for me:

I Wanna Grow Old With You

Monday, February 15, 2010

Sammi: 101

  1. I wish with all my heart I had long, thick hair down to my bottom
  2. If I could get away without any makeup, I'd never wear it
  3. I've never had a visible six-pack, oh but some day I will!
  4. I am an adrenaline junkie!!! But rollercoasters scare me..
  5. Cello music is one of the most beautiful sounds
  6. I love classical piano pieces, it's therapeutic
  7. A man who isn't afraid to get a little emotional in a testimony is the most attractive thing ever.
  8. I secretly hope "plump" is the perfect body in the next life
  9. Popcorn is my most favorite food in the world.
  10. I would like to someday complete (not just run, but complete) a marathon
  11. I think my dream job would be a private investigator
  12. I am the ultimate people watcher
  13. I HATE HATE HATE tension
  14. ...but I can duke it out if I needto...
  15. I'm classified as a "co-dependent" but I love to feel and act independent
  16. Cuddling is the BEST feeling in the world
  17. I am super annoyed with stupid license plates (i.e. PRINCSS, AGENWEL...) {no offense if anybody has these license plates, please}
  18. Working at a financial institution can be the most fascinating, difficult job at times
  19. I want the hobbies of oil painting, glass blowing, and pottery
  20. My dream home would be a 21st century "Swiss Family Robinson" treehouse
  21. I want to re-learn Chinese and learn Spanish, French, and German
  22. If I could afford as much schooling as I'd like, I'd get multiple degrees: Law, costmetology, Business/Finance, psychiatry
  23. I would love to be in a popular movie or sitcom once. Just for a little while
  24. I wish I was brave enough for singing lessons
  25. Biggest Loser and Bachelor/Bachelorette are guilty pleasures...
  26. I LOVE to travel. Biggest passion.
  27. My dream vacation would be a full-on European tour
  28. My dream adventure vacation would be an African Safari (so expensive!!!)
  29. I love my nieces and nephews SO much it's hard to imagine a deeper love
  30. I could spend hours watching gymnastics, ice skating, diving competitions, and dancing.
  31. Country music is the best
  32. I am 100% completely addicted to FRIENDS
  33. I am extremely shy when I'm intimidated
  34. I'm silent when I'm upset or hurt
  35. I don't like exercising, but I love the feeling of sore muscles.
  36. I love Spider solitaire and can play for hours
  37. I'm kinda afraid of cruises, but I'll try one someday
  38. Park City is my favorite city in the world
  39. I'm happiest when I'm laughing and my life is fulfilling
  40. I love looking at people's photography
  41. I enjoy hypnotherapy
  42. I don't like juice.
  43. I would love to someday adopt an orphan from China
  44. I love to read
  45. I REALLY want to drive a Monster Truck someday
  46. I want a Shar Pei dog someday (aka Wrinkle Dogs)
  47. Someday I'll go on a date with my dream boy!
  48. I love hidden meanings
  49. I always wear a ring from a country I've visited on my right hand
  50. On my left hand I wear a ring with my motto: "Laugh Often"
  51. Jellyfish absolutely terrify me
  52. My mom has all-knowing power when it comes to me
  53. I LOVE breakfast foods: cereal, hot cereal, crepes, waffles, pancakes, you name it
  54. I love museums and historical sites
  55. I'm convinced the most beautiful flower on earth is the one I witnessed bloom in Guatemala: Gentleman of the Night (haha)
  56. The way to love your family more than you can imagine is through a terrible trial then honest forgiveness
  57. I LOVE musicals and plays, especially Broadways (Wicked is my favorite!!)
  58. I am so ticklish on my left side of my neck up by my hairline, it's ridiculous to even get a haircut
  59. I sometimes shower with hotter water than hot-tubs
  60. Celebrity gossip magazines are another guilty pleasure
  61. Diet Coke. Enough said...
  62. If a public tour of Space becomes possible without extensive training, I'd be one of the firsts to sign up!
  63. I wish I could sing like Regina Spektor
  64. Sandra Bullock is my all-time favorite actress
  65. NieNie is my inspiration. I well up when I read her blog. Love her.
  66. I love to daydream
  67. I constantly compare myself to others
  68. I have a LOT of determination, but sometimes lack motivation
  69. I would love to work and live in NYC
  70. It would be a dream to be a member of the Mormon Tabernacle Choir
  71. I really like to paint. Just paint. A wall, ceiling, house, whatever.
  72. Michael Jackson, Josh Turner, Shania Twain are my favorite musical artists
  73. In the next few years, I want to become an avid skiier and snowboarder
  74. I have two left feet unfortunately
  75. No matter how hot it gets, I always have to have a blanket covering me to sleep
  76. I wish I had a southern accent
  77. I sucked my thumb until I was 8
  78. The girl I envied and looked up to the most in High School, is the girl I still look up to
  79. I will never fully get rid of the travel bug
  80. I feel the Spirit most through music
  81. I would love to learn how to play the organ, guitar, harp, and violin
  82. Whenever I go somewhere I always have to make sure I have my phone and work keys (I'm paranoid I'll lose them!)
  83. I'm a sticky note queen at work. It's a good thing I don't have them at home
  84. Hand-me-down treasures make me SO happy
  85. I love Chinese food, yet the 2 authentic Chinese foods I miss most is the yogurt (I froze mine) and the Unknown-meat-in-a-biscuit-and-spicy-bbq-like sandwich. Yum-my
  86. My "happy" place is anywhere with a hammock (Cancun or Posada de Santiago will do!)
  87. When I get past the point of "tired" I say things that don't make sense. It's embarrassing
  88. I am a member of the Lambda Delta Sigma sorority
  89. I love snakes and chameleons, but HATE spiders and bugs in general.
  90. I hate to see old people alone.
  91. I am fascinated with WWII, Titanic, and Chinese history (Geeky, I know)
  92. I'm a whiz at Google!
  93. I love snuggling in my sleeping back, in a tent, up in the mountains, during a bad thunderstorm. Everytime I go camping, this happens.
  94. I don't like pig meat. Occasionaly I'll have a few pieces of a pork chop, bacon or sausage, but rarely and absolutely NO ham.
  95. I love tropical fruit, but not so much with apples and bananas
  96. I'm addicted to KSL classifieds
  97. I've always been a true Team Jacob fan - long before the movies. Just sayin'
  98. Channing Tatum is my celebrity soul-mate
  99. I have had a Bucket List for years and it continually grows
  100. I have a shoe and purse fetish
  101. I hate the unknown

Thursday, February 11, 2010

I'm a big kid now!

It's official! As of tonight at 7:10 pm, I now have a new place of residence. I signed the contract and I begin my next big adventure with two of my best friends in just a few short weeks! We will be moving down south closer to our work locations. I'm really excited and definitely nervous! But, our landlord is the brother of a terrific friend and the condo is beautiful. I will miss my parents, and particularly little McKay, but I am ready to begin this new life with a new ward, new friends, and new responsibilities!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Pure Happiness

Thanks for the pics, Mom

Sunday, January 3, 2010

2010, New Year, New Decade ~ Bring it!

I am happy to be closing my chapter in 2009 and the past decade. I'm excited for a new opportunity and a new decade to look forward to!

This evening I opened up a Time Capsule my sweet Young Women leaders made for us when I was a Beehive in 1999. They included pictures, some letters from our parents, our leaders, and our favorite things from back then. In there was this list:

What I hope to accomplish by 2010

1. Graduate from High School w/scholarship for BYU {hahaha..ahem}
2. Go on a mission (if not married)
3. Get all of my Y.W. Medallions
4. Get married
5. Have kids
6. Have reunion with my friends
7. Meet Brad Robbins and get a date with him {this was my Beehive leader's nephew, ha!}
8. Go to Senior Prom
9. Go to Germany, France, Hawaii & Florida
10. Meet someone famous
11. Asked out a lot!
12. Go to college (BYU or U of U)
13. Make a million more friends
14. Become rich
15. Get a nice, nice car - VW Beetle Red {oh how I want to kick 12 year old Sammi..}

There you have it. From the very hand of Sam back in 1999. Obviously most of these things have not been accomplished, but I have done a bit in the past ten years I'm rather proud of...

  • Graduated from high school
  • Graduated from Seminary
  • I did earn my Young Womanhood Recognition/Medallion
  • I served as class president in every YW class
  • I did make "millions" of more friends. Some of the best I may say!
  • Learned to work at an early age
  • Quit lessons after 8 years of piano ~ still love to play, but not often enough.
  • Bought a VW. Enough said.
  • Taught English in China
  • Participated in Extreme Homemakeover for some valuable neighbors
  • Served the entire American Idol cast from Season 2 (Clay Aiken, Rubben Studdard..)
  • Served as a girls camp assistant director for 3 years.
  • Served as the Stake Primary Secretary
  • Spoke in Stake Conference
  • Became an aunt for the first time
  • Robbed at gunpoint
  • Witnessed the first black man to become president
  • Experienced 9-11 with the world
  • Survived Swine Flu
  • Vacationed in Hawaii, Guatemala, Cancun, etc
  • Received my Patriarchal blessing
  • Went to President Hinckley's viewing
  • Met President Thomas S Monson
  • Had my first kiss
  • First dates
  • Bought two cars
  • Gained a brother in law and two sisters in law
  • Been in love
  • My sweet nieces and nephews; Emily, Rachel, Nick, Adam, Eva, Kara, McKay and one on the way; changed my life
  • 3 brothers faithfully serve missions
  • Fell in love with extreme sports..parasailing, zip-lining, skydiving (only indoor so far, outdoor is next!)

...Many many more. I am so happy and blessed for the life I have. Truly. The past decade has been good to me. I hope the next decade will bring my next goals! (Some still the same!)

  • Get married
  • Have kids
  • Finish school (doesn't matter the school this time!)
  • Live within my means
  • Be happy

Happy New Year everyone ~

Saturday, January 2, 2010


Cancun was probably one of the biggest highlights of 2009. I totally and completely fell in love with Cancun. I loved the food, the people, the activities, you name it. I highly recommend going there at least once in your life!