Everytime I get into a rut, I plan a "what's next" step in my life. You know, your whole life you await those big monumental moments and checkpoints and then look forward to the next phase of life. Turning 12 to finally leave Primary and become a Young Woman. Turning 16 to date and drive. Turning 18 to rebel and graduate. Then the guaranteed checkpoints stop. What next? Life throws curve balls where you can choose your checkpoints. College. Missions. Marriage. Well, what happens if you don't have any of those for some reason or another? So, I picked another one. A right step. I moved out. Well, checkpoint accomplished. Now what?
I told KayCee my dilema today and she simply stated, "Um Sam. Enjoy it." It dawned on me then that I've never actually enjoyed my phase of life, but I worry about achieving the next. When that has happened in the past, and I can't get to my next phase soon enough, I create my own. Flee the country on some wild adventure. Pick up extreme sports to get that adrenaline rushing.
Last night I found myself seriously researching skydiving.
Don't get me wrong, skydiving is a sport I most definitely want to try. And to be honest, I more than likely will in the near future. But why can't I find college to be a "heart-pumping" phase, too? Why am I looking to postpone it (even if I've been unaware of this!)? I crave a college education! But I'm lacking the motivation to finally get started. Once I get pumped, I realize it'll take me three years to get a degree and I'm depressed. Do I really want to be working on my degree still at 26? Yes!
Somebody help me get my tush in gear! And remind me to enjoy my phase of life I'm in. Until then, I'm mentally preparing myself for a 12,500 ft. freefall going 120 mph!
PS Pictures of the place are coming soon, I promise!
Monday, March 15, 2010
I have a problem..
Posted by Sam Wright at 11:06 PM
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I've learned a little something in my old age. =) You can just start now and get it done or you can procrastinate. Either way, the time will still pass. You can get it done by 26 OR you can put it off until forever. But YOU have to be the one to decide when and what you will start.
You can have anything. Just ENJOY!!
Hey Sammi,
You have a good attitude. But ya know, even if you hit those checkpoints, I think people still have a hard time living in the now and enjoying it while it lasts. I know I do. I am so happy for you realizing the need to enjoy your time. We all need that reminder. Thank you! You are wonderful and will do great in college- don't be afraid. Those years pass so quickly. You turn around and wonder where it went. In the mean time, I think skydiving is an excellent idea. Good luck. It is some thing I've fanaticized about trying, but never got up the courage to do it.
I know how you feel, I'm a checkpoint person too. Hopefully the thought of a college degree will get you motivated to start, that is the hardest part. And once you get into it you'll be studying something that you enjoy... but that can also be the tricky part. Good luck! Focus on the things you do have now and what you're grateful for. :)
I hope that didn't offend you I meant it in a good way. And school doesn't matter when you start it's totally worth all the work that goes into it just knowing you completed it. And ps Ive now decided to at least CONSIDER the skydiving thing but I don't think showing me any more videos will help :)
Umm...I am going to start working on a degree when I am 40!
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